Brand New- Moshi Moshi (x)
I’m turning 20 next month so here’s a statistical recap/ general memory list of life so far.
1 cast I have worn
2 car accidents I have been in
3 years old when I met my current best friend
4 steady jobs I have held
5 pets I have babysat regularly
6 romantic relationships I have been in
7 tea-related decorations sitting on my desk
8 shelves of books in my room
9 total weeks of physical therapy I have had
10 pets I have loved
11 X-rays I have had
12 plays I have performed in
13 years since I have built a fairy ring
14 age at which I had my first “real” date (ie not the library)
15 objects within 2 m of me that are my favorite shades of green
16 age at which I had the most successful birthday party
17 age at which I graduated from high school
18 age at which my entire friend group changed
19 age at which my entire friend group changed again
20 percent of terminated relationships that have been ended by a less than loyal guy
More beautiful women have loved you,
more talented. Poems about you have
already been written by better hands.
I can’t help but cover up my bare skin.
I flee. I’m not still enough for your love.
My lips are attached to a nervous face.
My No is always quicker than my Yes.
I want to touch you so badly I don’t
know how to even reach out. I’ll never
know how to say it: how sunk I am
in this love for you, how salty,
Cristin O’Keefe Aptowicz